… ends here. I never thought that four years of hard work, preservance and hope will come to an end without any result. Although unsuccessful, it was a valuable experience for me.
It all started in second year when I decided that I have to give CAT. Then I started to gather more information regarding the test. More I learned about the test, more my confidence level got boosted. My IIT background acted as a catalyst to my confidence. Next year I got IMS material from a local shop. He used to sell xerox copies of booklets published by IMS. Started preparing from that. Confidence sored up….
Next year was the YEAR.. Enrolled with career launcher for their test series. Did quite well in that. Regularly scored around 90 %ile. My confidence level was touching zenith at that time. Went to Chandigarh for CAT exam with 4 other guys from college. Started the exam. Completed quant section first with ease. Next was verbal and that derrida passage. I was completely stunned by that section. Attempted just 8 questions in it, none from RC. Realised the reality during the test. and half heartedly completed it. I was very disappointed after the test. Just to make things worse, our endsems were starting after a day. I had to leave this episode back and had to start for another one. It was indeed difficult. Still, somehow, passed the exams. But CAT thing was still looming on my mind. I made promise to myself to bell it next year.
I got through one of the IT giants and was posted to Hyderabad for initial 2 months. That was when I started for my next CAT. I got myself enrolled with IMS test series which I found to be quite good infact better than career launcher one. I was consistently scoring good marks in the test. Was very confident of cracking the test. I was having some problems in verbal. Otherwise , I was quite confident of my chances. Then came the day. Quant was, unexpectedly, quite easy. There were many direct questions in it. Did it quite well. After that, I moved to verbal section and found it quite difficult. Still managed it well. Completed it in 45 mins. DI was also a bit on easier side. Also did quite good there. Was very happy with my performance in the test. Was quite confident in verbal and di. Not very sure in verbal though. Still hopeful to get atleast some calls. I was so confident of getting calls that I didn’t checked the answers. After few days results came out. And, BOMB………. What was that……….. NEGATIVE MARKS IN VERBAL ….. Didn’t expected this. Got very good scores in Quant and DI but Verbal was my nemesis this time. Was quite depressed for few days. It took me a while to get normal and then I started to prepare for the third encounter with CAT.
I was then transfered to Bangalore. After settling in the city, started preparing for the CAT. Joined TIME test series this time. Was doing quite good this time too. I was determined to get through this time. So I also filled MDI form. I was ready to accept MDI if I get through it. After the exam got over, I had a feeling that I had finally cracked the exam. Checked results this time. As per cutoffs issued by various coaching institutes, I was getting 3 -4 calls. Still a fear of failure was there deep inside my heart. After results came out, this fear turned into reality. Got 98 + ile with above 94 in all three sections still no IIM calls. Hopes and dreams were completely shattered. Later I found out that people securing less than me got calls from IIMs. So I called and send few mails to IIMs but of no use. I have to except the fate. Went to home for few days just to feel better. Later I found out that I had a call from MDI. MY FIRST INTERVIEW CALL… I prepared well for the interview as this was my only hope. Inetrview went ok. But when results came out, I found myself in waitlist. That too in 600s. MDI gave offers as per candidates CAT score. As there were many of them ahead of me, I was waiting for the waitlist movement. It moved and moved and then finally stopped. But I was still waitlisted. So season 3 ended there. I was still no where near to IIMs.
After that i gave some serious thought to GMAT. I thought to give GMAT in August 08 and apply for Fall 09 class. But at that time I had workex of only 2 years. So, after much discussions with my friends, I decided to postpone GMAT to next year and to give CAT for very last time, just to see if I can make it this time. Also got some heavy discounts for TIME classes on basis of my last score. Towards the end of my preparation I made up my mind to give GMAT in 09. So prep was not as great as it was last year. Anyways, gave the test and after the test realised that it was complete disaster. After a week took my GMAT appointment and then started preparing for GMAT. Result came and gone. I was not feeling disappointed this time. I was ready for it.
I realized that CAT was not only a exam for some. It is much more than that. It is not only a test of your quant and verbal skills. It is also a test of your patience and endurance. Luck factor is always there in any exam. But I found that one needs much luck in CAT. I had seen people exceling mocks like anything but failing at the final frontier and people not preparing for it and cracking CAT on D day. For me CAT was a great levellar. It shattered my ego and overconfidence to pieces. Also it brought pain and torture with it. I still think that CAT07, my third one, was the best for me and I was very close to making it to IIMs. That still hurts me. But CAT also made me more determined every time. More determined to get into a Bschool. And one day I will make it….. Thats my promise.